BF called me in the best mood yesterday to tell me about his interviews, and then to tell me that he recieved compliments from someone saying "You 2 are so good for each other. She's so hot! You look cute together.", then later to tell me that he got the job from the 1st interview. In his excitement he professed to me, "I finally feel like I deserve to have someone as beautiful and amazing as you and I don't have to worry that I'll lose you to someone who has more to offer, because now I'll be able to provide for you and give you all the things you deserve." Ok, I know you might want to punch me in the face right now for all that. But I swear I'm not making it up! He's really that much of a sweetheart! *sigh* But don't forget...Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Just because he says it, doesn't mean anything. I'm far from Scarlett Johansson or Jessica Alba...or even Britney Spears these days, in my opinion. I digress. Getting back to the subject, BF finally got a job and now the picture is complete. He is damn near perfect to me. I'm the happiest girl in the world!Until...I saw a missed call from him on my phone this morning. It came in around
3:30am, but I hadn't heard from him yet while I was getting ready for work like I expected to since he had to go into the job today to finish up some paperwork. Then about 11:30am I get a call from him. Very hesitantly he explained to me that he was arrested last night after a few celebratory drinks at the bar with one of our friends and was charged with a DUI.My heart dropped. I was so shocked that I didn't know how to respond or what to say. Not another boyfriend with a DUI...what the hell is wrong with me that I keep running into this problem? Is it my fault for having poor judgement? I am so smitten by him and he amazes me every day--as much as I resist admitting it, I feel like he could really be the one--and now I am thrown back into the same situation I was in with my ex-fiance? I don't know what to do.
Should I leave him? Should I just give up and really be single for once? But how would I do that? How could I just throw away a 10 year friendship over something like that? Its understandable that as a girlfriend I have the option of calling it quits on account of tough love. But he makes up too much of my life to just cease all contact. I can't imagine being without him. I'm heartbroken that this happened. I'm going to have to take some time to think about what's the best thing for me to do in this situation and if I have to make difficult decisions, then so be it.
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Ugh, that's terrible! I wish I had some sort of advice for you, but all I can say is that I think its worth looking into it, and seeing if its something he can not do anymore and if you can forgive this one bad choice.
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