The One

Yesterday BF picked me up from work and took me out to lunch. It was so nice. I haven't seen him since Sunday--only 3 days--and we missed each other so much. I felt weird because after we ate, I sat on the same side of the booth as him and we played kissy face until he'd payed the bill and we had to leave. The waitress kept coming over saying, "sorry... I don't want to interupt." and BF told her we don't get to see each other that often. Haha. I thought to myself, "We're those assholes that everyone stares and makes puking noises at and says get a room!" But, oh well, screw em! We can't get enough of each other and that's fine with me because I am totally smitten.

We had been talking about a friend of ours who always says the girl he's dating is "the one". I was telling BF how this friend is talking about moving South and buying a house with the current "one" and we got on the subject of friends getting married. Then BF jokingly asked me, "So, when are you going to get married already?!" I laughed and answered "When I find the one." Then for the rest of the lunch he kept making comments about it, only half joking. He asked me, "oh, so I'm not the ONE? I'm just here to kill time until you find someone better? Its cool. I'm fine with that. I wouldn't marry you anyway." Then right away he says, "Well no, I probably would. I'd marry you tomorrow if I could. But I can't afford that yet."

So, anyway...he apologized later because he didn't want me to be freaked out by his talk of a long term relationship with me. But I assured him that I do think of those things. I think of them in pretty ridiculous ways (obviously, from previous posts in May & June), but I try to pretend that I don't because I don't want to get ahead of myself. I've tried and failed too many times and I just want this time to work out right. I'm head over heels in love right now, but I have to take it one day at a time.