Doom and Gloom

I miss my happiness. It seems that since I became pregnant its been nothing but doom and gloom for me. I want to be happy, I really do! A lady at the pharmacy congratulated me on Friday and told me I don't look pregnant. That made me kind of cheerful. Of course, when I'm with BF I'm 180% better. I'm happy and I seem to feel less sick. I needed that so much over the weekend since I was sick ALL of last week. I felt like I'd never get healthy again. Then over the weekend when I was with BF my cold started to go away, I felt a little better, and I actually had a good time hanging out with friends. Now I'm back to work and I was already in the bathroom crying this morning, and now I'm almost crying again thinking about all of this. I can pretty much bet that if I could get back on my Meds I'd be back to normal. But it doesn't look like my stomach's getting any tougher so I don't think I'd be able to handle digesting them. I just don't know what to do in the meantime.