Egg Salad and Anxiety

I'm into egg salad lately... its weird, for some reason I equate egg salad with pregnant women. When I was working at my last job, several years ago, one of the girls there would eat egg salad on a bagel for breakfast. I'd watch her walk past me every morning and after a while I got suspicious. I thought, "who in the world eats that for breakfast? Especially every day! Sounds like a pregnant craving to me..." Then a light bulb went off... "I bet she is!" So, lo and behold, I've been eating that very same breakfast, but on whole grain bread instead.

Its been 4 days since I found out and already I'm anxious to tell people, anxious to go to my first OB exam, anxious to find out all the things I'll need to know. But, in the back of my head I'm thinking "don't get ahead of yourself!! You don't know anything for sure. What if the doctor says it was a false alarm? (doubtful!) What if I have complications and it doesn't even last to the third month to the point where I can tell people. What if I jump into everything and it only jinxes me?" I guess that's all part of the anxiety, too, though.

BF is so wonderful... he started his new job this week (finally employed after SO long), and he said all he thinks about is me and the good thing he's doing for us by taking this job. I feel so bad for him though. Its a warehouse job and it is insanely physically demanding. I was shocked when I finally got a chance to see him this morning. He is literally covered in dirt and cuts, scrapes, & bruises from head to toe! He has to climb up and down pallets of inventory all day pulling orders, then throwing them to the other guys, or he'll be on the other end catching cases of glass bottles being thrown at him from above. And that's only the beginning of it! He told me, "its slave labor!" ...but its a Union job, so the pay is outstanding and they have excellent benefits. I only hope that he won't get stuck in this job because of our situation. He has so many hopes and dreams for himself. I'd hate to see them all shot down because we didn't have a chance to plan ahead.

....I think we'll be ok.