What if Plan B Doesn't Work?

For some reason I haven’t been blogging too much lately. I started an entry not too long ago but lost my train of thought and gave up. I saved it to draft, then read it again about 10 minutes ago and decided to publish it now. I’m sure it has everything to do with the fact that I no longer have my own computer with internet access at home, and my increased busy workdays have left little time for my usual internet antics…not to mention the depression and fatigue I’ve been dealing with for weeks. On top of that, I’ve been sort of sick to my stomach, my ta-tas are ginormous, and I feel bloated like I have to poop all the time… Wait. Let me back track for a minute.

19 days ago BF and I had an evening where we were doing the most simple, common activities but for some reason we were insanely in tune with each other. We were helping a friend plan & promote a huge party. I had been solicited to design the flyers and BF had come to my work after hours to proof them. We stayed at the office for 4 hours that night until 9:00pm, but worked so beautifully together that it made me lightheaded afterwards. I couldn’t believe how well we were able to communicate and work together toward a goal. It felt so good to accomplish something with such a perfect partner! I stayed at his house that night because its considerably closer to my work than home is and I’d get more sleep that way…or so I thought. I can’t even describe what happened later except to say that it was surprising, but I wasn’t at all worried. I was happy to be with him, to experience a first with him, and that’s all that mattered. The next day I went to the Pharmacy bought Plan B and took it as directed, and figuring that everything would be normal.

Now…given the previously mentioned factors, it became obvious once my 26-28 day period due date came…and passed, that everything may not be normal after all. I took 2 tests; both came up with double pink lines. It was more than obvious that the “nausea, abdominal pain, fatigue, headache, changes in your period, dizziness, and breast tenderness” which had all been listed word for word as side effects of Plan B, could instead be more than I’d expected. So… it looks like I’m... we’re in for some surprises over the next 9 months. I heard that you should do that because miscarriage is so common, that you don’t want to be telling everyone and then have to tell them all the bad news as well. So, we’ve agreed to wait 3 months before telling anyone…just to be sure.