Ok, seriously... when did I become this antisocial person who doesn't care about anything? I don't have the energy or interest to even decorate for Halloween this year. WTF!? Halloween is my favorite holiday!! I love dressing up and going out to parties to see everyone that I haven't seen in a year. But I'm not even dressing up this year! None of the cute costumes fit me and I don't have the money to get a new costume. I don't know if this is just my period talking and its just hitting me really hard right now, or what? I can't stand this person who I am now. I used to be so excited to go out and party and now all I want to do is sit at home and its not b/c I don't have any friends like it was last year. This year I actually have people to hang out with, I'd just rather sit home on the computer. Just thinking about this makes me mad. I really hope this new medicine works b/c I am starting to get really sick of myself and its just going to make me even more depressed.
God, I wish I could just be freakin normal! Is that so much to ask?!! That I just be a normal person with regular brain chemistry and no mental problems!?!!!! Isn't there a pill out there that will just make me a better person altogether? C'mon, give me a break here!
Ok, seriously... when did I become this antisocial person who doesn't care about anything? I don't have the energy or interest to even decorate for Halloween this year. WTF!? Halloween is my favorite holiday!! I love dressing up and going out to parties to see everyone that I haven't seen in a year. But I'm not even dressing up this year! None of the cute costumes fit me and I don't have the money to get a new costume. I don't know if this is just my period talking and its just hitting me really hard right now, or what? I can't stand this person who I am now. I used to be so excited to go out and party and now all I want to do is sit at home and its not b/c I don't have any friends like it was last year. This year I actually have people to hang out with, I'd just rather sit home on the computer. Just thinking about this makes me mad. I really hope this new medicine works b/c I am starting to get really sick of myself and its just going to make me even more depressed. 
God, I wish I could just be freakin normal! Is that so much to ask?!! That I just be a normal person with regular brain chemistry and no mental problems!?!!!! Isn't there a pill out there that will just make me a better person altogether? C'mon, give me a break here!
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