Uhh...OCD much?

I'm so frustrated with myself lately. I can't focus on anything that I should be focusing on, and I'm totally OCD about things that I don't need to focus on. I'll spend all day at work playing on the computer. Really, it is playing b/c I'm just trying outfits on my virtual bridal party at DavidsBridal.com, or chatting about nonsense in wedding websites, or whatever. I have so much work to do at my job and its all piling up. I'm procrastinating like crazy. Oh, and the OCD thing... its crazy b/c I had a little bump that I thought was an ingrown hair and I sat there for almost 45 minutes with a tweezers trying to dig it out until I finally realized I had made a huge hole in my skin, there was no hair in there to begin with, and I'd plucked all the surrounding hairs so I now have a bald spot there. Not to mention I think I have a cold sore on my lip. I've never had one before so I thought it was a pimple that wasn't ready to come out yet. So, I started squeezing it to try and make it come out and it turned into a big white bump. I swear it better not be there b/c of my makeout session w/the BFF/GM. I'll kill him. Ughhh, whatever. Everything is just making me nuts lately. I really need to try extra hard to focus and get my work done and get caught up to where I'm supposed to be at my job. I think I'm going to ask my psychiatrist about taking ritalin or adderol when I see her Saturday. My flakiness is getting out of hand and there's gotta be something I can do about it. Ok, time to get off the internet for once and get to work. Sure, I hate my job. But I don't want to get fired before I can get myself together enough to find a new one!

See... just typing up this blog has completely deterred my chain of focus from how it was when I first got into work. I've gotta get back on track.