Last night I drove around and dropped off the last few Christmas presents I had for friends. When I stopped at my best friend's house to give him his gift, I ended up staying for a while. That could've been predicted considering we never want to leave each other's side once we're together. He didn't have a gift for me, so he made dinner for the two of us and then we watched a movie...sort of. I swear I didn't come over to his house for that reason! It just seems to happen... we find each other irresistable.
Text messages from my fiance were coming in every half hour or so past 11:00pm. First suggesting that I come home from "the bar", then once I texted that I wasn't at the bar, the texts changed to a more sarcastic and suspicious tone. I know he's not stupid, so I don't blame him for saying something. But I was hoping he would just trust us a little bit...just long enough for us to break it off on our own without him realizing what's going on. So, toward the end of the movie came the moment by bf and I had both been avoiding... "we need to talk". I could tell how difficult it was for him to say, "we can't keep doing this." Then he went on... "I've wanted you for so long and you make me so
happy whenever I'm around you. But I just can't do this to him. I love that boy too much. ...I love you too, but ...you know."
"I know. You're right. ...so we just have to hang out without having sex ...or kissing... or touching... " I replied, sighing and biting my lip.
He answered, "Well, we can still flirt like we always have. But yeah... So, are we ever going to tell him?"
"No. Never." I said, "Deny deny deny. There's no reason for him to know. It would just hurt him even more."
So...there it is... a breakup of sorts. A breakup of the benefits side of being best friends with him. Now... its time for me to focus on what I really want, without being distracted by the crazy chemistry with my bf. What a life I live.... nonstop drama.
Text messages from my fiance were coming in every half hour or so past 11:00pm. First suggesting that I come home from "the bar", then once I texted that I wasn't at the bar, the texts changed to a more sarcastic and suspicious tone. I know he's not stupid, so I don't blame him for saying something. But I was hoping he would just trust us a little bit...just long enough for us to break it off on our own without him realizing what's going on. So, toward the end of the movie came the moment by bf and I had both been avoiding... "we need to talk". I could tell how difficult it was for him to say, "we can't keep doing this." Then he went on... "I've wanted you for so long and you make me so
happy whenever I'm around you. But I just can't do this to him. I love that boy too much. ...I love you too, but ...you know." "I know. You're right. ...so we just have to hang out without having sex ...or kissing... or touching... " I replied, sighing and biting my lip.
He answered, "Well, we can still flirt like we always have. But yeah... So, are we ever going to tell him?"
"No. Never." I said, "Deny deny deny. There's no reason for him to know. It would just hurt him even more."
So...there it is... a breakup of sorts. A breakup of the benefits side of being best friends with him. Now... its time for me to focus on what I really want, without being distracted by the crazy chemistry with my bf. What a life I live.... nonstop drama.
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