Realizations/Confessions

• I've made so many bad life choices.
• I should have tried to fix myself and my own financial problems before getting involved in someone else's.
• I'm sick of paying both AT&T bills, bailing BF out on his car payments, and having to pay for airplane tickets to his family reunion after we agreed he would pay for it.
  
• I'm 30 years old. I should not be living in my own mother's house, much less anyone else's mother's house.
• I subconsciously would rather complain about not having any room for any of my belongings here instead of making room and moving my stuff in, because I'm in denial about the fact that I live here. I don't want to make any moves that would establish this as a permanent or even semi-permanent residence.
• I should have so much accomplished by now and I have nothing. Not even the ambition to find my dreams or get a simple job anymore.
  
• I miss my apartment SO much. I miss my freedom.
• I don't know who I am.