Don't Be So Sensitive

For the past couple weeks he has been almost a different person. I can tell he's let his guard down completly now and he's comfortable to act any way he wants around me. He calls me almost every day, he tells me constantly how he feels about me, he stares deeply into my eyes without saying a word, and he wants me to be with him all the time. He's shown me that he's just as big of a dork as I am. Its wonderful... but at the same time a little daunting. I have never seen this side of him before. When we were seeing each other last time, about two and a half years ago, he started to show me his sensitive, caring side and it freaked me out. I was like, "Who is this? This is not the guy I know. This is not my 'boy'... the hard assed sarcastic friend I chill with." And it kind of scared me away. But I can't let it scare me away this time because I really care about him and if I do ever want to have a future with him I'll have to know, love, and accept all sides of him. I just know that he doesn't let many people in like he lets me in to see his sensitive side. It feels nice...but weird. It also takes away a little of the excitement. I guess I liked the thrill of the chase. As much as he drove me crazy, I think I liked not knowing he was mine... and having to hold myself back from calling him. I've been trying to do that lately, but he calls before I even have a chance to test myself. I suppose I could not answer... but I figure that would just be dumb. Its so backwards... it seems to be that when he ignores me I want him more than ever and vice versa. I kind of want him to be that hardass that I always knew, but still give me all the attention he gives me. Of course, isn't it always the case that you want what you can't have?