Lifting the Gloom

Its been so gloomy out the last 2 days. The grey skies make me feel like life is not real. Its weird. This afternoon I was starting to get into a slump. But then I sat and chatted with a girl at work and I began to feel better. I don't know if it was my meds finally kicking back in (after taking only 1/2 of what I should've on Sat. and none yesterday) or just the interaction with someone instead of moping by myself... but its always nice when the gloom begins to go away.

I think I am going to seek counseling for all this drama I'm putting myself through. I got the number of someone from a friend of mine. She seems to like the counselor she's seeing. As soon as I can get my new insurance card I'm making an appointment. Its probably much needed if I'm feeling like the only thing that can relieve my stress these days is to smoke pot by myself.