BF is sort of driving me crazy with his desire to be around me all the time. I was the same way toward him for a while...always wanted to be with him, totally infatuated. But now I'm kind of thinking, "dude, let me breathe. I need my space. I like to just chill and be me during the week." So, when he called me yesterday to hang out I said sarcastically, "Omg, Its been 24 hours, hasn't it?! We have to see each other or we'll die! hahaha..." He knew I was joking so it was cool. But then when he got to my place he kissed me, and I was left standing there with my head tilted to the side, eyes closed for 30 seconds after he walked away, feeling lightheaded and dizzy as I smiled and said to him "oh... well, I guess I did miss you after all. Thats all it takes to remind me!" That feeling right there is the best feeling in the world. If only I could apply it to everything else I question about him... and "us".Later, when I decided it was time for me to go to bed I said to him "are you staying over or going home?" He wanted to stay, so we went to bed thinking we were both actually tired for once on a weekday at 10:00. But then I was totally unable to sleep. I was tossing and turning. My body was buzzing with energy but my mind was telling me its sleepy and wanted to pass out. Its such an obnoxious feeling! I 
didn't want to wake him with my squirming so I went on the couch and curled up in a little ball, trying to relax. That didn't work. Finally I ate some cottage cheese--something my parents would make me do to fall asleep when I was little. That must've worked because some time after that I found myself waking up from sleep on the couch, so I went back into bed to sleep for good. I have a slight suspicion that I might have taken one too many pills yesterday afternoon when I took my daily dose. I couldn't remember if I'd taken them yet or not. So, perhaps that was the reason for my aggitation. But other than that I have no clue. Maybe it was just BFs presence that was aggitating. Who knows?
didn't want to wake him with my squirming so I went on the couch and curled up in a little ball, trying to relax. That didn't work. Finally I ate some cottage cheese--something my parents would make me do to fall asleep when I was little. That must've worked because some time after that I found myself waking up from sleep on the couch, so I went back into bed to sleep for good. I have a slight suspicion that I might have taken one too many pills yesterday afternoon when I took my daily dose. I couldn't remember if I'd taken them yet or not. So, perhaps that was the reason for my aggitation. But other than that I have no clue. Maybe it was just BFs presence that was aggitating. Who knows?
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