I'm feeling smothered!! BF is so comfortable with me already because we’ve been friends for so long, so he’s all ready to jump into the relationship life and it feels like he’s almost forcing me into it. He expects that we’ll see each other every other day and talk every single day and then on Fridays he just assumes we’re doing something together. Last Friday I was PMSing so I just wanted to go home, be lazy and go to bed early, and he calls me in the afternoon and is like, “I’m on my way home from (wherever) and don’t feel like going home right now just to come back later, do you mind if I go chill at your house till you get home?” (I had given him the key so he could lock up one day when he slept over and he never gave it back! He asked me if I wanted it back and I said "yes"...but then he gave me a sad look and I was like, "well, it doesn't really matter. I guess it would be cool for you to have in case you want to surprise me again one day.") So in response to him asking to chill at my place till I get home, I’m like… "um, I was just planning on doing nothing tonight so you can go there if you want but I’m not going to be any fun tonight." I don’t know… I guess I’m just feeling irritated about it. The thing is, though, when I’m around him I’m happy. I like being around him. When he kisses me I get lightheaded and butterflies in my stomach and think to myself, “oh…I guess I did miss him.” Its when I’m not around him that my mind goes crazy and starts to feel smothered. Its really weird.
Friday, April 18, 2008
You're Smothering Me
I'm feeling smothered!! BF is so comfortable with me already because we’ve been friends for so long, so he’s all ready to jump into the relationship life and it feels like he’s almost forcing me into it. He expects that we’ll see each other every other day and talk every single day and then on Fridays he just assumes we’re doing something together. Last Friday I was PMSing so I just wanted to go home, be lazy and go to bed early, and he calls me in the afternoon and is like, “I’m on my way home from (wherever) and don’t feel like going home right now just to come back later, do you mind if I go chill at your house till you get home?” (I had given him the key so he could lock up one day when he slept over and he never gave it back! He asked me if I wanted it back and I said "yes"...but then he gave me a sad look and I was like, "well, it doesn't really matter. I guess it would be cool for you to have in case you want to surprise me again one day.") So in response to him asking to chill at my place till I get home, I’m like… "um, I was just planning on doing nothing tonight so you can go there if you want but I’m not going to be any fun tonight." I don’t know… I guess I’m just feeling irritated about it. The thing is, though, when I’m around him I’m happy. I like being around him. When he kisses me I get lightheaded and butterflies in my stomach and think to myself, “oh…I guess I did miss him.” Its when I’m not around him that my mind goes crazy and starts to feel smothered. Its really weird.
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I understand how you must be feeling.
Also, at the same time I thinking, "I wish my bf would "smother" me, as it were...
Things are kind of the opposite in my relationship. I think it helps me to read your feelings because they must be similar to what he feels with me. ;)
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