Skipping Steps

Ok, last week he surprised me by coming straight to my house on his way back from STL. But then he never left! He's been staying with me for 9 days and I never even invited him to stay. I was so excited for him to stay overnight for the first time, I just wanted everything to be prefect. Then we went from 'first sleepover at my house' to live in boyfriend. Um...don't you think we skipped a few steps there? I'm a little freaked out by it. But I can't really complain because I'm really enjoying his company. We watch movies together and have lots of amazing sex and its nice to wake up next to him. He even surprised me with roses and dinner on April Fools day after tricking me into thinking he was on his way back to STL. He's been cooking dinner for me a lot. I love watching him in the kitchen. He's so cute the way he sings to himself while he's cooking and does a little dance while he's chopping veggies. I can picture him being a good husband and father, making dinners nightly for the family. He's just such a kind, compassionate, intelligent person.

Then why am I so hesitant to accept the feelings we have for each other? Last night we were laying in bed and I could tell he was waiting desperately to hear those 3 little words. I thought about it and although I try not to say them, I do feel them. So, I said it. I said, "I love you." and he instantly grabbed me by the back of the head, pressed his lips to mine and held the kiss for what seemed like forever. It was nice to know it meant so much. Even if it scares me that he is seemingly so infatuated with the thought of "us".