Meds & Emotions

I saw my psychiatrist yesterday and told her that I hadn't started taking the stabilizing medication she wanted me to take, and how I thought I should give the Wellbutrin another month to work itself out before I made any changes. She asked me if I was having any trouble sleeping, or if my moods had been up and down a lot. When I told her everything seemed to be evening out and stable, and that my sleep patterns have been totally fine, she said, "good. Then you're not manic at all. Good job." And she said I can stick to the meds I'm on and not add the stabilizer! I'm very excited about that. It tells me that its not mania causing my confusion and emotions... that real life causes real emotions and there's nothing wrong with that at all. Sometimes its easy to forget that not everything is caused by my chemical imbalances.

She asked how the wedding plans were going and I told her...."well, they've sort of taken a turn in the opposite direction now. I'm feeling much better about myself and starting to think this guy is not THE ONE. Its weird, but the flowers, the dress, the wedding planning... none of it seems important anymore, when I used to be obsessed with it." Then she said something that I thought was pretty insightful for a woman who only sees me for 15 minutes every month and 1/2... "Maybe he was taking such good care of you when you were depressed that you didn't notice he wasn't right to marry. But now that you can take care of yourself, you realize he's not right for you."