8 and 1/2 months already!

I can't believe I'm 8 and 1/2 months pregnant. Its crazy! I expected to be as big as a house by now. I'm pretty big but its all belly and I still feel cute. Of course these last 6 weeks or so could be icing on the cake since they say you gain the most weight at the end of your pregnancy. But so far I feel good and I'm excited to meet the baby. I am getting kind of nervous and anxious though. Its hard to keep my mind occupied now that I have so much free time...that's due to getting laid off a week and 1/2 ago. Yeah, I know... who lays off a pregnant lady when they're 8 months pregnant?! Everyone has the same reaction when I tell them, "Oh my God, that's terrible! What are you going to do?" But I'm actually relieved to be gone from there. I've been miserable at my job for quite some time and have wanted to find something new but just didn't have the time or confidence to do it. Then when I got pregnant I felt so stuck because I needed the steady income and the insurance and thought, "who's going to hire someone who can't function at their best because their pregnancy is interfering with their performance, and then has to take maternity leave shortly after being hired? It's just not going to happen." So, obviously I can't start looking for a new job right away because those same things apply...who's going to hire a girl who is about to have a baby? But since my lay off came with a pretty sweet going away package, I'm lucky enough to have these next couple months as a paid vacation so-to-speak. I get to relax at home for the rest of my 3rd trimester and then I have as long as I want to spend with the baby once she arrives (or at least a couple months before I need to be bringing in more income).

Now my only problem is trying to keep myself busy so I don't go crazy with anxiety or get depressed and sleep all the time. I spent my first week of not working by getting up early every day, getting dressed and actually wearing makeup for a change, and then going shopping. Its kind of funny... who gets laid off and goes shopping? I guess that's just all I could think of to keep me busy. Plus I really needed some new clothes and shoes since I've either worn out or grown out of most of mine, and the mall walking was good for me. ....but what am I going to do for the rest of my unemployment? Better find something more productive--and less costly--to do instead.