Your Turn to Go Get Her

Are you kidding me? These are the moments that I just cannot understand; this is why I make fun of you to my friends saying "he calls me after an hour of being alone with the baby, asking when I'm going to be home."

I've been working all morning on a scholarship essay and trying to get ahold of admissions at the 2 colleges I'm pursuing and when I go upstairs to ask BF is he can go pick up DD for me while I return a call to one of the admissions advisors instead of me going to pick her up, he gives me a grumpy face and gets all flustered. So I ask what's wrong and he gets all whiny saying "I really don't want to! I just wanna chill and do nothing right now. I don't even want her here." Really?? That's how you feel? I'm with her 24-7 and hardly ever get a break and now when I have something important to do, you're going to be a bitch about it? I could tell he realized what he was doing and so he says, "Alright, I'll go...dammit." I tried to just tell him to forget about it and then he got all huffy again and said, "now I feel bad. I love our daughter, I really do!"

I just could not grasp his attitude whatsoever. I didn't even know what to say.

Period Letdown

Is it wrong that I get secretly excited when my period is late? Or that I'm actually kind of disappointed when my period does get here? I guess part of me would love to have another baby even if it's not the right time. It must be that primal instinct to carry on the species that pushes us to do things we know weren't entirely pleasant the first time around. To reproduce even when we can't fully handle the child we have now. Or maybe it's just the fact that I can't justify the PMS symptoms I get. Nausea, mood swings, fatigue, back pain, etc...are just not necessary every month! When will they figure out a way to skip all those things? They probably have for all I know, but I'm not really into birth control so I guess I'll never know.


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