We did it. The flirting and chemistry was just too much to handle! So, as soon as I knew my period was gone (...sorry, probably TMA) I made a date with him. Sunday Blockbuster night. I had to!! I couldn't stand not being with him another minute. I drove all the way to a party he was at Friday at 4am just so I could kiss his black eye (from a fight he got in earlier) and be with him for a little while that night, so by Sunday I was craving his attention. I love the way he grabs my beltloops when he's walking behind me and pulls me close to him. I love how he constantly wants to touch me... rubbing my thighs, tickling my arms and neck, grabbing my ass when he walks past, kissing my forehead or cheeks. No one else has ever been like that with me! He grabs my hips and gently digs his fingers in on my hip bones and it drives me crazy... I have to move away and say, "oh no... don't do that now..." with a smile on my face, of course. He walks up behind me and kisses the back of my neck... I've always loved it when someone did that. Why doesn't my fiance do that!?
So... we got a movie, we weren't even drinking at all, and half way through the movie we just started looking at each other. I'd catch him looking at me, or he'd catch me looking at him... then finally... just started making out. And after a few minutes he stopped kissing and just looked at me. So, I'm like, "what?" And he says, "you're looking at me like you want to say C'mon mother fucker! Rip my clothes off already!" ...that was a pretty vulgar interpretation of what I was thinking but he wasn't that far off considering I'd been wanting him every day for who knows how long. So, I laughed said, "well... yeah... pretty much."
After it was done, I was so relieved. Ahhh... I could've fallen asleep right then and there. I don't know how he does it, as awkard as it may be physically (remember the movie pic from the previous blog! lol..), he is so good at satisfying me. We started talking a little and he asks me, "Do you feel bad?" ....I answered, "Do I feel bad about what?...cheating? ..... no ...If it was anyone else I would feel bad. But not with you. In a perfect world I would be able to have 2 guys and I would be content with that. But... I can't so this is how it has to be." ...He laughed a little and said, "You know you think like a guy, right?" And I answered, "Yeah... I kinda turn myself on by that." (wink) I guess its just the whole factor of wanting to have your cake and eat it too. Usually its the guys that think that way... the guys that go around breaking hearts. But in my case... I'm just one of the guys.
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